Don't beg for anyone to stay in your life. If they want to be a part of your life, they will stay.

Hi dude.

Am I wrong if I scare if I don't have friend? Not right? It's normal right? We as human must be need to have a friend. Isn't it?

I want to tell you that I have a bestbestfriend. When I'm 1st grade on high school, she always take me accompany. We always spend our time together. Have a talk, play a joke, laugh, cry together. And she is everything for me. Hard for me to labeling someone as bestfriend. And she is successful.

But when 2nd grade, I felt like we not spend our time as often as before. She have new friend and I have to do the same. But it's not the reason for me to forget her. She still the best ever.

I often jealous to anyone who can play a joke with her and replaced me. She never told her story to me anymore. I felt we are too far away, we ever so close. I felt like I'm losing her. It's hurt you know?

And you know what, she feel the same. She also miss me and jealous with my other friend. She jealous with my classmates and supposed that they took me from her. She told me about that when I was 16. And I say that I don't want to be like this. I still want to having fun together.

But, she told me that everything has changed and can't to be the same anymore. And I'm too cruel.

sad

losing

...

Ok. Cause of that, I'm realizing that I'm not good enough to be her friend. And in the end, she is true. Everything has changed. And I'm cruel.