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take a shower, wash off the day.  drink a glass of water.  make the room dark.  lie down and close your eyes.  notice the silence.  notice your breath.  still breathing.  notice your heart.  still beating.  still fighting.  you made it, after all.  you made it, another day.  and you can make it one more.  you're doing just fine.

A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and become every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it's the most painful thing you'll ever have to do and that you've ever done. But what's yours is yours. Whether it's up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it'll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time you won't have to put it back in the sky again.

Retirement does not mean not working. It means, barring unforeseen cataclysmic changes, work or not work, wealth grows automatically, staying ahead of inflation. Assets are large enough to grow by themselves. It's like planting a tree. You water it for years, and then one day it doesn't need you anymore. Its roots are implanted deep enough. Then the tree provides shade for you enjoyment. So.. "Where do I get started?" or "How to get rich quick?" (red) A rich dad said "if you want to be rich, you need to be financially literate" So many people who become instant millionaires. Some people have become richer and richer, but most people fail to realize that in life, it's not how much money you MAKE, but how much money you KEEP and how many GENERATIONS you keep it. All stories including: 1. Lottery winner who are poor, then suddenly rich and then poor again. They win millions, yet are soon back where they started. 2. Professional athletes...

pluviophile (n) a lover of rain; someone who finds a joy and peace of mind during rainy days. Can you feel it?

terpenjara terkekang geraknya pengak nafasnya tak hilang sayangnya tak hilang kerja otaknya tak hilang pedulinya tak hilang jua kreatifitasnya ia fikirkan banyak hal namun tak banyak yang bisa ia lakukan tak bisa membuat sebuah pergerakan kemajuan diangannya tak terucapkan rencananya hilang kasih mereka hilang balas jasa padanya namun tak pernah hilang tekadnya tak perlu perang saudara katanya namun perang batin dihatinya bohong belaka katanya ia tak apa mana ada semuanya baik saja sakitnya mungkin tak terasa rindunya mungkin tak kunjung sirna belenggunya mungkin menyiksa harapannya tak pernah sirna ntah berapa tulisan ia rangkai dengan pena penghilang bosan juga teman sampai penghabisan harapan nanti kan terpublikasikan tumpul sudah penanya pudar sudah tintanya tapi suaranya takan padam oleh waktu oleh zaman

pagi ini aku menemuinya sudah lama tak jumpa dia marah pikirku benar saja datang tak bersambut detik kini tutupi hangatnya aku berdiri memaku diri tak bergurau tak bergeming beberapa lama ia tetap sama aku kembali ia tak kata berhenti

everything was easier when he was darkness and she was light, but they could not resist the temptation of being grey together

In the midst of boundless nature, I exist but do not exist. I now let go of everything and return to nothingness. I am happy and peaceful.

"You can taste sorrow in salt tears and in the bitterness of spoiled words left in your mouth for far too long. You can hear sorrow in a familiar song. You can hide sorrow behind closed doors and inside screams muffled by pillowcases. You can stick to sorrow as if it were gum in your hair; too mangled to brush out, too jarring to chop off. You can see sorrow in bloodshot eyes and shaky hands. You can get lost in sorrow when it knocks your life off course with no detour signs to redirect you. Most importantly, you can be found in sorrow by becoming a different version of your self, here, on the other side of tragedy." - Anonymous -

Above the appalling ruin; in bleak light Of your stormy eye, magic takes flight

"The strongest people I know have been overtaken by their weaknesses. They know what it’s like to lose control. The strongest people I know have cried in the shower and in their car. They know loss and guilt all too well. The strongest people I know aren’t bullet proof. They have felt the searing pain of life’s shots.  The strongest people I know make the decision every day to wake up and place their two feet on the ground even though they know the monsters beneath their bed will grab at their ankles. The strongest people I know are not strong by definition, at all. They are mistake-makers. They are mess-creators. They are survivors." Alicia Cook - Stuff I've Been Feeling Lately

I love endearing names call me lover and I'll run river for you call me the moon, I'll be that for you but the way some people call you by your name, like sweet honeydew soft, but also tingly like frost bites it sends shivers all over your back every syllable rolls off of their tongue like it was destiny that your name was made for their mouth to be the castle in which it resides and it makes you wonder has your name always been this beautiful since before it leaves its throne

Kata mereka, cuma ada satu matahari. Kataku, itu milikku. Dan aku tak mau berbagi. Di batas itu, aku memilih menjadi buta. Kenapa? Tanyamu. Entahlah. Mungkin cinta memang begitu.

do you ever fold your hands and sit quietly to imagine someone is holding your hand with passion forgetting everything around you, just to sit up suddenly realizing it's still you squeezing yourself into a smile for a conversation you lost track of ??

I remember all the pain I remember all the shout I remember all the verbal harassment I remember all the fragmentary memory I won't do the same stupidity I know them well I know the feelings I know how hard I dig a hole never fulfilled

you smashed a glasses into pieces not only glasses plates bowls fortunately, the pieces of them not hurt anyone the way you smashed them have patched in our memory did you ever apologizing to peope? did you ever think you were wrong? did you know we have our own revenge? now you act like you right fools I don't want to be a foolish there is no reason to do violence you planted a seed of satan in my heart and now they've grew up

I hear a story from each side but never know where is the real one pretence story or hidden story sound so pathetic begging for mercy act with unsinful face now I can understand I can not believe thoroughly untruth on their right and left hand if you ask me where side am I stand for? I will never stand for them now I can't even believe anyone the traumatic memories the sadness the buried anger unhealed mentality all of a sudden everything looks unreal nothing really real

there are many people with their eyes open whose hearts are shut. What do they see? Matter. But someone whose love is alert, even if the eyes go to sleep, he or she will be waking up thousands of others. If you are not one of those light-filled lovers, restrain your desire-body's intensity. Put limits on how much you eat and how long you lie down. But if you are awake here in the chest, sleep long and soundly. Your spirit will be out roaming and working, even on the seventh level. Muhammad says, I close my eyes and rest in sleep, but my love never needs rest. The guard at the gate drowses. The king stays awake. You have a king inside who listens for what delights the soul. The king's wakefulness cannot be described in a poem

did you know? I always pray to God to set me in death note I pray to give the rest of my age for you and dad but now I realize, I have survive that hard to die It's not supposed to be I just trying to ignore this loneliness Where are you? where have you been? did you know your daughter have much hurt she is almost die she still alive for no reason she find a finish line she have seen the line but without the end of the sorrow now she just want to stand on her own leg on her own path

Since I was born am I distened to be surviver? I was survive in a warm michene in a cold room I have to through this with my immature body without my mom without my dad even my brother 12 days since I was born I was alone my small body now can grew up as now people say positive vibes can comfort you but no one do people say the energy of Yin and Yang should be balance but all I feel is all imbalances No one care No one care

First, observe how you most often express love to the others. If you are regularly doing acts of service for the others, this may be your love language. If you are consistently, verbally affirming people, then Words of Affirmation is likely your love language. What do you complain about the most often? when a loved one says Happy Birthday and you respon, "You didn't get me anything?!" you are indicating that Receiving Gifts is your language. The statement, "We don't ever spend time together," indicates the love language of Quality Time. Your complaints reveal your inner desires. (If you have difficulty remembering what you complain about most often, I suggest that you ask a friend or family member. Chances are they will know.) What do you request of others most often? If you are saying "Did I do a good job?" you are asking for Word of Affirmation. "Do you think we could hangout this weekend?" is a request for Quality Time. "Wo...

I've finished to filling out the love languages profile for single to discover my love language. This test is for understand your love language (and your beloved if you have) and how it affects your relationships. The reasult for my 5 Love Languages is: The Highest score indicates my primary love language - how I really understand the expressions of love from others. It's common to have two high scores (The highest score being 12), although one language tends to have a slight edge for most people. The lowest scores in my profile indicate those languages I seldom use to communicate love and which probably don't affect me  on an emotional level in my relationships. Quality Time In Quality Time, nothing says "I love you" like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there--with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby--makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed a...

As time goes, I just being an ordinary women who spent my time for something ordinary. I just spent my day to sleep, listen music, eat, playing games, update my social media. I still did nothing for my future. Once upon a times, I read an instagram story: Never settle for someone lazy. Why stay with someone who can't seem to manage their own life and expect that they would do the same for the family that you're going to build? It's 2018. Believe me cute face and hot body don't pay your bills. Invest yourself on someone smart. If you come from a family whose mom and dad built everything together from zero. Salute!! I just realize and really want to beatle with laziness. Although hard but I have to. I have to start to have a plan for my future. I'll never change my life until I change something I do daily. Because the secret of the success is found in your daily routine. "Don't fear failure. Fear being in the exact same place next year as you are to...

everytime I wanna give up everytime I wanna die everytime I feel alone everytime I want to tell but no one listen I always live in my imagination I was in God's hug he tell me it's alright when you have no one you have me when you think it's hard you still have me when you think you can't look forward you always have me God's hug calm me down he hug me with a big wings like angels wings in every fairytale story with a bright light

rise said the moon and the new day came the snow must go on said the sun life does not stop for anybody it drags you by the legs whether you want to move forward or not that is the gift life will force you to forget how you long for them your skin will shed till there is not a single part of you left they've touched your eyes finally just your eyes not the eyes which held them you will make it to the end of what is only the beginning go on Open the door to the rest of it

In life, you realize there are a role for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you, some will love you and some will teach you. But the ones who are truly important are the ones who bring out the best in you. They are the rare and amazing people who remind you why it's worth it. I ever read about 20 things I learned in my 20's that I remember is to choose friends who will lift you up, support you, inspire you to do better and be with you even when you're at the lowest point of your life. Spent your time and energy on people who you can connect with. You don't vibe/get along with everyone you meet and that's okay. Having a small circle of real friends is 100x better than having a ton of acquaintance.

And I have this tiny part of mine I couldn't dare to bare it on my own So I keep throwing it far far away It's like hiding behind A very strong rock but with a very fragile inner So when something somehow touch it It revealed like a pandora and how I wish that would never happen - Anonymous -

Leader I sometimes think about the future that I am no longer a Musician. If that time comes, I would like to support fellow artists' works. Within BigBang, we often discuss about making things that are actually valuable, and not only focus too much on money. It's not about making our own company. It is about supporting younger musicians, actors, and artists. I'll be 30 years old next year. It is time for me to think about our future and start taking the necessary steps towards that goal. Musicians From The Past I am extremely proud of Korean music, and musicians. I knew I wanted to be a singer/musician since I was a part of Junior Roo'ra. The people who made me want to be a musician were my seniors, in the other words, musicians from the past. I was born in the 80s, so I was exposed to all kinds of music which people from the 90s were not exposed to. I listened to songs by Cho Yongpil, along with songs that were even older than that. The interesting thing is, that ...

I'm an introvert. And it will take time for an introvert to let their guard down, to open their heart. They will move slow and take their time to really get to know you before they commit because they want to be sure. It take patience to understand that an introvert is secure in their own life, so it will take effort to prove to them that they are safe with you, that you have good intentions. Through soul searching they've learned what they're looking for and what they will not settle for. They believe that nothing is worth jeopardizing themselves, which is why it sometimes takes so long for them to open up. But be assured that when an introvert's walls come down and they allow themselves to fall in love with you, their love will not falter. They will make sure you know that they only have eyes for you, and you will never doubt their love. It's not always easy for them to connect but when they finally do, the connection will be solid. Although an...

It's not because I hate famous brand. But just throwing on a logo hoodie don't make you "stylish", throwing on a archive piece or Japanese brans to look "different" don't make u stylish either. Truth is it's not about what brands you wear. It's all about who YOU are. Invest in yourself before spending all your money in clothes. - Gizmothegoatt -

There's no shame in being alone. I used to always get embarrassed when I eat alone at a restaurant or watch a movie alone. I would pretend I'm texting/calling someone I'm about to meet up with (how pathetic can I get lol). But as I grew older, I started to find the beauty in being independent. I live for those days when I go to the mall alone, go to a coffee shop, sip on my iced latte and enjoy the silence. As you grow older, all you need is just a peaceful life.

How can you not be inspired when your life is just an idea in your head. You create you. You are the universe observing itself and if you can't see the beauty in that than look inwards not outwards. This skin that garnishes our exterior is a part of us, but you exist in my brain. This is how I see you, this is how I hear you, this is how I am able to sense you. Your purpose is in your head, as it was in the heads of our ancestors. Everything we know, everyone we love, all of our experiences in this form,  all of the fights and the tears, the excitement, the mistakes, the successes and the happiness we share, will all be here. Right here on earth together. So be inspired and appreciate our existence because when you are happy, I am happier. When you are a beautiful it allows me to be beautiful too. When you care, I care and we were put here to all share. Not to control, not to own.. You own nothing, this time is borrowed, even the air you breathe in you must exhale. So don...

The time of my brother scholarship have been ended. And before going back to Indonesia, he ask what I want. As tumblr girl, I think about Fjällräven backpack since it was so popular on Tumblr. So, I ask for Fjällräven backpack. Fjällräven In 1960, Åke Nordin founded Fjällräven in a basement in the Swedish town Örnsköldsvik. Since then they have stayed true to their mission; Developing timeless, functional and durable outdoor equipment. Acting responsibility towards humans, animals and nature is fundamental value at Fjällräven. They are proud of their work but they want to be even better. One of their engagement is the Save the Arctic Fox Project. To inspire and educate people to have an active outdoor life has been their objectives since the company was founded. Fjällräven Classic is a popular summer folk festival located in one of the world's most beautiful environments. Fjällräven Polar is a 330KM adventure showing that with the right equipment and knowledge anyone can enj...

Roses aren't always red & violets aren't exactly blue, the society that we live in never seems to speak the truth. Smiles aren't always happy & frowns aren't always upset, people judge too quickly & our feelings are what they forget. -(a.v)-

Few personality types are as poetic and kind-hearted as Mediators. Their altruism and vivid imagination allow Mediators to overcome many challenging obstacles, more often than not brightening the lives of those around them. Mediators’ creativity is invaluable in many areas, including their own personal growth. Yet Mediators can be easily tripped up in areas where idealism and altruism are more of a liability than an asset. Whether it is finding (or keeping) a partner, making friends, reaching dazzling heights on the career ladder or planning for the future, Mediators need to put in a conscious effort to develop their weaker traits and additional skills. What you have read so far is just an introduction into the complex concept that is the Mediator personality type. You may have muttered to yourself, “wow, this is so accurate it’s a little creepy” or “finally, someone understands me!” You may have even asked “how do they know more about me than the people I’m closest to?” This is ...

In the workplace, Mediators face the challenge of taking their work and their profession personally. To Mediators, if it isn’t worth doing, it isn’t really worth doing, and this sense of moral purpose in their work colors everything from how they respond to authority to how they express it. Though the way the Mediator personality type shows through depends on the position, there are a few basic truths about what Mediators seek in the workplace: they value harmony, need an emotional and moral connection to their work, and loathe bureaucratic tedium. Mediator Subordinates As subordinates, Mediators prefer latitude, and would much rather immerse themselves in a project, alone or with a close team, than simply be told what task to do and move on. People with the Mediator personality type aren’t looking for easy, forgettable work that pays the bills, they’re looking for meaningful work that they actually want to think about, and it helps for their ...

It is perhaps more challenging for Mediators to find a satisfying career than any other type. Though intelligent, the regimented learning style of most schools makes long years earning an advanced degree a formidable undertaking for people with the Mediator personality type – at the same time, that’s often what’s needed to advance in a field that rings true for them. Mediators often wish that they could just be, doing what they love without the stress and rigor of professional life. Oftentimes, as with so many things, the answer lies somewhere in the middle, in a line of work that begins with passion and dedication, but which comes to require training so that the academia feels intimately linked to that passion. Too many Mediators drift in frustration, ultimately succumbing to the necessities of day-to-day life in a job that wasn’t meant for them. But it turns out that, despite such exacting demands, modern economics places a premium on the very keys to Mediators’ challenges: their c...