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It makes me sick, the way sadness is addicting. The way I can't stop. Sadness is familiar. It's comfortable and it's easy in a sense that it comes naturally to me. But everything else about it is hard. The way my body aches with self-hatred. The way my mind spins and spins with hopeless thoughts. The way it poisons everything I do, every relationship I have. Yet it's addicting, because I know sadness, and I know it very well. And there's a sort of comfort in that, like being home after a trip or sleeping in your own bed after being away. There's just a sense that this is where I belong. This is how it's supposed to be. - Marianna Paiqe -

Everyone must be have favorite artists or musicians. So do I. I love Kwon Ji Yong (has known as GD) since I was in middle high school until now. And there were several conversation about his interview with ELLE about his new album and his personal life separated on SNS. And I just want to re-write about what he talked for everyone who know or who want to know more about him through his new album. ELLE : This album is a bit like a diary, with many parts that reflect your life. What made you have this change of heart? GD: I'm only doing what I was supposed to do. I'm about to enlist since I'm 30 years old. In many ways, it's now the most important period of my life so I thought, rather than mindlessly chasing trends, why not treat this album like it's my last and I can show everyone the most authentic side of me. It's like when I'm in my mother's womb when I was born. This is also why my world tour is called MOTTE. I used to like creating new single ...

Today (when I write), January 13th 2018 I'm nervous now. can you hear my heartbeats? Next week I have schedule to do a practical work at midwifery ward. I have to work there for 1 week from January 15th till January 21th. I'm so nervous. It's my first time to wort at midwifery ward. I never handle a baby or a patient on their antenatal, intranatal or postnatal periode. I'm scared if I will do any mistakes. Uuhh As you know, I take Nursing Program Study and now I learn about maternity, that's why I need to work there to pass my score. Before start my practical work, I should write a preface report about Antenatal Care, Intranatal Care, Postnatal Care. I should write about definition, physical and psychological changes while pregnant until being a mom, and the last I should write nursing care about the diagnoses, outcome and intervention. And they just give me 1 week before the practical work to finish all of them. When I was finished the preface report, the...

It's the first post in 2018 and I would like to say Happy New Year 2018 everyone !! "I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're doing something." - Neil Gaiman - Past year has been a tiring year for me. I felt ups and downs for being a blogger. I abandoned my blog for more than 7 months. I didn't update my blog for this long. why??!! because I'm busy and I don't have any interest to open my blog. Really sorry 😌

Do you ever feel disappointed by someone you've believed? Several weeks ago, I was felt like disappointed to my friend I've trusted. We ever have pinky promise that we will focus for our study. Focus to make our parents proud of us. He said he didn't want to have any relationship with anyone. Just focus focus and focus to our goals. I was inspired by him. Like, there is a man who think his goals for the future more important than gold, glory or girl. It means, he had principles in life to reach bright future. It was sounded "WHOAAA.." I trust him. Because so do I. I want to be focus too.. I have too much goals to be distracted by any relationship. But in the next day, He had girlfriend. I just think like, is it what you say just for have good image in front of me? is it totally lie? Then, I think, it's oke if he still can focus or maybe more focus study after that. But, when he is on his examination schedule, I should listen to his complains about c...